First Blog Entry :D ~ The Backstory

Since I was young I don't think I would of ever been considered as 'skinny', at the least I weighed 53kg and at the most I weighed just over a 100kg. I currently weigh 81kg and is 153cm tall so still quite a long way to go.... my goal weight is at the most to be 53kg and at the least 43kg.

53kg was during my high school years so probably from the age of 14 and onwards I am now 22. At that time I was wearing a size 9-10 which I myself never really thought it was a big size but because at that time most of the girls I hang around with were probably a size 6 to an 8 at the most so in comparison I was probably a lot bigger, I got teased a little bit and talked behind my back but it was nothing b****y but just "oh she's chubby" or "fat"which is still quite upsetting. One day I went to Vietnam for an 8month holiday and came back a lot slimmer fitting a size 8. My aunties looked after me well there, getting fed breakfast, lunch & dinner, lots of fruit to snack on and all I drank pretty much was water or soybean milk. They also took me on a walk everyday around this lovely park close to our house ~ it was pretty and relaxing had a koi pond and fairy lights at night so quite pleasant to do a few laps, then I moved forward to doing some aerobics classes which I think I did every weekday, weekends I had off. I also have pretty bad acne but for some reason when I was in Vietnam they just disappeared... I think it has something to do with the weather there.. not to sure, but my aunty took me to this lady where she does facials and hair. At first she just made me this face wash to clean my face every night Im not to sure what she used but it was orange and smelt kinda weird and tangy I think after a week of that my face was significantly better she then moved forward into getting rid of black heads... it was hours at a time and OMG that stuff HURTS I cried so much... but beauty is pain I guess. My mum was pretty useless, she wasn't the one to take me bra shopping or anything of that kind so my hair was nothing special.... didn't really ever cut it had a few trims once in a blue moon so when i got the chance to change it up i took it!! I came back from vietnam and I was getting compliments from everywhere!! it was probably more due to the fact I didn't tell anyone I was going on this trip either but from that day forward everything was looking pretty good :D

~ This was probably year 9

~ when I was 16 ( Im the one with the pink cardigan )

~ I think I was 15... this was after just after I came back from Vietnam

~ I know these photos are not the best but its all i can find for now sorry

I soon met my ex boyfriend of 4yrs and a half. The extra weight slowly creeped up on me, I guess its just from dating really, he really spoiled me we would eat out all the time and cause he worked in a deli the amount of lollies he use to give to me was ridiculous never ending, I would put them in my school blazer pockets and just eat them during class or any other time really. Then my mother decides to get a deli/lunch bar in the middle of no where and leaves me to look after it for a whole month ~ that was bad!!! I gained so much weight from just eating all the stuff that was available I instantly grew into a size 12 overnight. Pretty much it stayed like that till I got pregnant, I possibly might of just hit size 14 just before I got pregnant Im not to sure but pregnancy is what did it for me. I ate sooooo much!!! I didn't want a scrawny newborn ate everything in sight and my partner at that time he just spoiled me all the time. After I had my son I weighed just over a 100kg and for my size and frame thats pretty large, it was so depressing I couldn't buy clothes from the stores I normally go to and had to deal with plus sizes from target that weren't that all appealing then, what was even worse was underwear!! maternity bras are just not pretty at all and i have a hugeee thing for pretty and cute underwear it was so sad. On nursing I grew to a F cup!!! I had no choice but to wear maternity bras all the time. It just got really depressing but I couldn't do much cause I wanted to make sure I had enough milk for my son so i ate often and I couldn't exercise because I had the C-section. It was rough but I gradually made it down to a size 18 after breast feeding then to a 16 when my son hit the age of 1. I didn't do anything it was probably just because I went back to school and being a mum I slowly just lost the weight. From then on it was pretty much yoyo but only little differences back and forth.

~ after a month of giving birth to my son 2008

~ april 2009

~ My sons first birthday 2009

~ unni's birthday 2010

2yrs ago I had a very bad break up with my ex I somehow lost 10kgs. I had no idea, didn't feel like it all I mean people told me I lost the weight but I couldn't really see it. I literally did nothing tho but now that I look back I actually didn't eat at all but I only remember doing it for a little while so surely I couldn't of lost 10kgs in 2 weeks... it was probably all the stress he put me through over the breakup it wasn't a clean one it kept dragging on. As I was loosing the weight I was gaining in other things, my acne was coming back and btw during my pregnancy it was perfect not one imperfection, my eczema was coming back also. I never had it as a teenager only when I was a child from what my parents told me but at that time I really didn't know what it was and just kept scratching to the point it was bleeding and it would sting to go in the shower, I hated using the medicated creams because it was smelly and too oily so I hardly ever used it. It started from the back of my knees, my stomach, my arms and chest I also started to get a tiny bit on my cheek every now and then it will re appear on my eyelids.

Ok so now since my life is somewhat close back to the norm and probably cause due to the fact Im planing to go to korea middle of the year and my aunties wedding in March I have been more dedicated and determined to loose my weight and reach my goal weight ASAP. I decided to start this blog so people can join me on my journey for those who are interested. The blog will also consist a lot of other random things besides from my weight, ranging from my skin care and make up, OOTD, hauls, my son, rambles about TV or movies and latest obsession etc so this should be fun and interesting. :D in advance I want to say thank you to those who take your time to read my blog or even just cruisin by ~ much is appreciated. 

xo ~ Lily

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